It's been a while since I wrote on my blog and I feel a little bit bad about it, but mostly, I feel this break was exactly what I needed. To be honest, these past few weeks I have felt a bit out of balance. I'm in this weird phase of transition and just constantly feel a bit of inner nervousness. Leaving our previous home and starting up this new chapter in our life hit me harder than I thought. It also hit my husband harder. Sadly, it hit our daughter the hardest. Which led her into a toddler hitting phase. I diagnosed us with what I would call a soul fever and prescribed us a big fat dose of rest. A slow down pill if you will.
You may have noticed, that I was rather absent from social media this summer. Right now, it seems best, to just put my phone down and spend a whole lot of quality time with my baby and my toddler. Mothering is an all-day, all-consuming thing and in the five minutes in between, I just can't master the energy and creativity it takes to maintain a steady blogging or Instagram routine. Also, I noticed that I got annoyed with loosing followers. Something had to change. Social media should always be a joyous creativity outlet and never a source of any sort of negative energy for me. I felt ashamed of my own superficial feelings. Therefore, I just stopped opening apps for a bit. Instead, I stared at my baby. I simply held my nose into the sun at the playground, instead of checking my phone. Some days, in order to regain some sort of resiliency, I did a whole lot of nothing. Quiet mornings at my mother's house. Siestas to beat the afternoon heat. Mellow evenings.
It felt like a good start, but at the same time, I felt tired, dissatisfied, and actually bad about not achieving anything creatively. Luckily, I reached out to my friend and fellow photographer Siobhan and she set my head straight, by sharing a lot of encouragement and a little bit of insight on how she recently managed to become happier. She raved about gratitude journaling. Sure, not a new concept - but a new one for me. Every night, I write down three things I'm grateful for. This leaves me feeling entirely pleased with my day right before sleep. Feels nice. Now that I'm going through a lot of change and uncertainty its a good practice to start appreciating the small things. It makes me feel calmer and more centered. I'll keep you posted if gratitude journaling changes my life big time.
Other stuff for wellbeing I've incorporated into my days lately:
I freed my calendar. Even though, I would have loved to meet some people for dinners or coffees, I simply didn't have it in me to pack more into my days. Saying no, was bittersweet, but much needed.
Even though I typically don't drink more than two cups of coffee a day, I made sure I wouldn't drink any after 3.30ish pm. Turns out I'm still restlessly tossing and turning at 3.30ish am if I do.
Finally, I took the time to download stitcher (its a podcast radio sort of app) and better yet, I took the time to start listening. There's so much knowledge to be gained and my mind pulses with joy every time I feed my mind something out of the ordinary.
On car rides, during bath times, and most evenings I started listening to audio books again. Motherhood totally killed my concentration to read at night, but listening to a book, even just for ten minutes, is nourishment for the soul. Ever the lover of Nordic Noir, I'm currently listening to "The ice princess" by Camilla Laeckberg. I'm also wrapping up "The Nordic theory of everything: In search of a better life", as well as "No-drama discipline: The whole brain way to calm the chaos and nurture your child's developing mind".
Next week, me and the kids and Lars (our Dachshund) are flying to Texas. Luckily, my mother is tagging along for much needed support. There will be so many new places to explore, neighbors to meet, boxes to unpack and things to clean. I'm yearning for fall, when the dust settles and we are finding ourselves in our new life in our old routine. Until then, forgive me, when I'm only sporadically appearing on your feed, or take several days to answer your message.
How have you been lately? I'm happy to re-connect. Any good tips on how to soothe the soul in more hectic times?
Shop small: oh, this wonderful gratitude journal you see in the photos was gifted to me by "The gratitude attitude". Even though regular paper would be just fine, I adore the modern simplicity of this journal.